February 17, 2008. It is titled: Life Changes.
No, I don't mean menopause...I'm way too young for that. I mean that my life has been on this amazing rollercoaster for the past few years, & it doesn't seem like it will ever stop. I met my now husband, Big A, in 2004 at college. He was a junior and had really incredible blue eyes. 9 months later, we were engaged at Yellowstone by a waterfall (yes, it was romantic). A little over a year later on August 5, 2006, we were married at my home church in front of God, our parents, family, and friends. 3 months later...we got pregnant.
Moose was born on July 1, 2007. It doesn't seem like that was nearly 8 months ago - maybe 8 days ago. But here I am, a full-time student and full-time mommy and wife. It's a lot harder than I ever imagined this to be. I changed my career goals and major for my little guy - English teaching to English non-teaching. It's been so amazing to watch him go from a cute little blob to a cute little wiggle worm!
Now, with graduation barely over 8 weeks away, I don't know what's next. Big A has been awesome these past 2 years working at a job that he only likes without benefits just to support our family and me as I finish school. We made a group decision that it was best for me not to student teach this semester (for me, it was I didn't want to leave Moose at daycare 5 days a week all day -- for Big A, it was we could be a little less poor if I didn't s.t.). It's just so weird that I'm not going to be a teacher. I wanted to be a teacher in 4th grade. Now, I'm a mommy and I'm planning on being just a mommy for however long I can be.
I don't regret my decision, but with Moose at this age, it's just that I don't really know what to do during the day. I let him roll around on the floor, I play with him, he gets in his saucer, I rock him, he naps, I do homework. But with this weather, it's too cold for walks yet and our town is too small for anything to do outside of our home. It gets lonely with a 7-month-old who only talks to Bob....get it? He says "bob bob bob bob." Okay, I thought it was cleaver. I just wish there was more for us to do together besides watched Charmed and Law & Order all day. I welcome all ideas!
And then there's the pregnancy weight. Why is it that some women can lose the baby weight like *snap* that, yet I can work my tail off working out, eating healthier & small portions....and I lose 5 pounds? I wish I could do Jenny Craig or Slim Fast without paying out the woohoo or go on Biggest Loser or Fat March without begin away from my family for 6 weeks. I run, I do mountain climbers, I lift a little, a do my Dancing with the Stars workout video, I run more, I do sit-ups. What more can I do? I just am getting to that point where I want to get pregnant again, but I know that at my weight that's not a healthy decision because of where I would end up on the scales. It would put me at high risk for gestational diabetes and all sorts of unhealthiness. But I miss that round belly with little kicks from the inside.
Is it insane how little (and how much) life has changed in the past 2 1/2 years?! Life has become no less of a rollercoaster with moving 3 (soon to be 4) times, having another child, and training for a half-marathon. Sometimes I still don't know if I want to teach (other than homeschool). I still don't know what to do with my kids during the day sometimes. Although my tv has changed from watching Charmed and Law & Order to Blue's Clues and Little Bear, I still get my fix in during nap time.
The thing that has changed most in my life since I started blogging here is my weight. I lost a little after Moose was born (10 pounds), gained another 40 with Squirt's pregnancy, and now I've lost 40 pounds. I weigh what I weighed in high school, I can fit into my junior and senior prom dresses, and I will be participating in two races in the next two weeks.
Last year at this time, I started this running journey by walking in the Applejack Festival 5 mile walk/run (with Squirt). This year, I will be running those 5 miles. The following week, I will be running 13.1 miles with my husband in our first half-marathon.
|last year: my first "race" - 5 mile walk|
Thanks to Standards of Excellence, Westar Kitchen and Bath, and Florida Builder Appliances and SITS for sponsoring and hosting this event.