I know I've talked about friendship and mom friends and other friends before. I just am having a hard time with this. I was having such a bad morning (arguing with Big A, not enough sleep, cranky baby, toddler who only wants to watch tv, didn't get to go visit doggies at the shelter...you get the idea) and I had no one to call.
And I know I'm not the best friend in the world to the few (one? two?) I have. I don't call. There are two reasons for it: a) you have lives (either children or work) and I don't want to interrupt and b) fear of rejection - what if you don't pick up? What if you're too busy for me? I know that sounds very grade school but it's definitely a fear of mine.
I was reading a blog post about someone whose been friends with this other girl since she was 12 and all I could think of is that I don't have a friend like that. Most people have a friend from elementary school, high school. The only person I talk to from that far back is my cousin and that's really rare other than the Facebook comments.
My college friends...oh wow, I haven't talked to most of them in months (if not more). I might run into one of them or go to a BBQ of theirs, but I just don't feel like I can call.
For as many people as I know and as great as the bloggy friendships I've made, they just haven't added up to the real thing (I don't even know many of your first names). I just wish I could call someone up who would listen (and care) about what's going on, no matter how insignificant (and sometimes it's complaining about a husband or kids this friend may or may not have or just to how fat I'm feeling or could we just go mall walk and window shop sometime). I am just in some serious need of girl-time and there's no estrogen in this house other than my own. Maybe I just need a cat.
Ok, I'm not going to say my life sucks waa-waa poor me (because if you saw my last post, I know my life is good), but am I the only one like this? Do you have someone who you call when your husband is being a turd, your kids are being turds, or you just are having a bad day?
And so this isn't a completely crap-filled post, I put up a picture of Moose & his girlfriend at a local fair. Aren't they cutie pies?