As excited as I am to get this labor stuff over with an meet our new baby, I can't even explain how overwhelmed I am about having to be away from Moose for a few days.
I know I'm leaving him in very capable hands (my mom), but I can't help but be so sad to not be taking care of him. And what makes it worse is that he's been super cranky the last few days so I've probably yelled at him so much.
Today he actually addressed me as "mama" as in said "mama?" and wanted up on my lap. He's never actually acknowledged me like that. He'll kiss me when he's told to kiss mama, but never called me that by name.
I'm super paranoid that something will happen while I'm away or that, at the least, he'll be too much to handle with tantrums and just his schedule being so off. I don't want things to be so crazy for him. I don't want to come home to our schedule being so screwed up.
I think about it for a split second and I just start bawling. Maybe that's so stupid. I don't know, but it's how I feel.
I miss him already.