After a ton of crying (on Moose and my parts) at bed time, he finally fell asleep. He screams like....I can't even describe it. It's horrible. It makes me cry and I just want to hold him and hold him. But I know that won't solve our problems because he just wakes up when we lay him down.
Anyway, then around 2am, I feel Big A get out of bed. Apparently, Moose is crying and I'm oblivious. The same thing ensues: crying like he's terrified, rocked to sleep or semi-sleep, waking upon being put down, crying again and again and again. Seriously, this all loops together until around 4am!! 4am?!? What? That's when Big A goes to sleep on his floor. That works until Big A comes back in around 4:30 and shortly thereafter, Moose decides to come in our room. He scares the you-know-what out of me which makes me yell an explicative, which makes him cry. I pick him up and tell him it's ok, he just scared mommy, and I take him back to his room. I lay on his floor (which in my already uncomfortable stage SUCKS) until I can't take the tummy pressure (he wakes up every 10-15 minutes, I'm pretty sure to check if I'm still there). I move to his recliner/rocker which freaks him out (I just tell him mommy's still here, now lay down). Around 5 or 5:30 I can't take it, I need more sleep. So I pick him up and we go to the big bed, my bed. I lay with him until 6 when my stomach can't take being empty anymore. I placed a pillow behind him to keep him asleep. Big A decides to move him to his own bed, which wakes him up.
We've had breakfast and now I'm left with the question of how am I going to make it through today??? Big A says this will pass and I know this is true, as everything does eventually. I also know we can't sleep on his floor every night. I also know that we have a baby due in 44 days that will keep us up at night - how can we do this for 2 kids??
I just am at a loss of what to do. I'm tired and cranky, my back hurts, my head aches. I am just lost - sometimes I feel like I'm just tripping through motherhood.