Friday, May 2, 2008
Today Big A told me, "I don't think I'm qualified for the Driggs job." WHAT?!?! Is this the same Driggs job we've been waiting to hear about? Is this the same job we've been researching houses for? Is this the same job all of our eggs are in the basket for? The same job he applied for at least a month ago. But only today did he really see that they want a G6 and he's only a G4 (not sure what all that means but you know). That's just great. Am I upset? Yes. Mad? Not really, mostly because I know he's so disappointed in himself just in the thought of not getting the job. I just wish that there was some light at the end of this tunnel. Where are we going? Are we going to be stuck here (yes, stuck) for the next year, 5 years, 10 years? Is A going to work for Mr. Pessimistic at that dead-end job for the rest of his working life? He can't. I can't even tell you what my thoughts on the job are but I know he would just be sucked into this black hole of pessimism and never escape. It would infect our marriage, our son, our whole life. I don't know. I feel useless because what am I supposed to do? I guess I could look for jobs and let him stay home (which wouldn't be bad but I just really love staying home). This sucks.