Today I'm starting to really feel it. The chaos that God is in charge of - that thing called my life. My best friend is moving in T minus 6 days. My husband is frantically looking for a new job so he can support us. I have been job searching, too, and actually for jobs I might get offered (we'll see). I don't know if we'll be able to pay rent next month or buy Tristan shoes soon. Will we move somewhere or stay here? I know that's always been a question, but it seems like we're drowning here.
I know God is in charge of all of this; which is why I haven't freaked out (too much). I know He'll show Big A what to do, where to go. But that's in His timing; what about in the mean time? We need money. There's no doubt to that, unless God's going to throw some Manna down here for us & give me a staff so I can hit a rock & get water out of it. Maybe He will. I don't know.
I just feel like life is very unstable right now. Life has always been stable for me. I'm glad that Moose is oblivious to this mess. The last thing I need is my child stressing about something like this. I don't even need to....yet, I do.
I know my prayer life has improved through this process. I know God knows where the end of the tunnel is...but can't He at least shed some light on my path down it? I guess it's just one of those days.
EDIT: I wanted to update you all on our story. Here is the most recent post about our job search.