Tuesday, August 12, 2008

just one of those days

Today I'm starting to really feel it. The chaos that God is in charge of - that thing called my life. My best friend is moving in T minus 6 days. My husband is frantically looking for a new job so he can support us. I have been job searching, too, and actually for jobs I might get offered (we'll see). I don't know if we'll be able to pay rent next month or buy Tristan shoes soon. Will we move somewhere or stay here? I know that's always been a question, but it seems like we're drowning here.
I know God is in charge of all of this; which is why I haven't freaked out (too much). I know He'll show Big A what to do, where to go. But that's in His timing; what about in the mean time? We need money. There's no doubt to that, unless God's going to throw some Manna down here for us & give me a staff so I can hit a rock & get water out of it. Maybe He will. I don't know.
I just feel like life is very unstable right now. Life has always been stable for me. I'm glad that Moose is oblivious to this mess. The last thing I need is my child stressing about something like this. I don't even need to....yet, I do.
I know my prayer life has improved through this process. I know God knows where the end of the tunnel is...but can't He at least shed some light on my path down it? I guess it's just one of those days.

EDIT: I wanted to update you all on our story. Here is the most recent post about our job search.

64 comments:

Rachel Ann said...

Blessings!

It takes courage to admit when life is rough and seemingly unmanageable, but that is when God takes care of us the best--isn't it?

I pray that things are looking up for you...from the sounds of your post about a job it is! The Lord is Good.

Jamie said...

I'm sorry that things haven't been going so well lately. I hope things have gotten better though?

P.S. Congrats on being the featured blogger on SITS today!

April said...

We'll all been there! What it all boils down to is God is in control...TRUST HIM!

Have a good one!

Dee from Downunder said...

oh, I have been there. It is a stressful situation, I am glad you keep faith! Hope the situation has improved since August.

Creative Junkie said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! :(

I hate that so many people are suffering in this economy. I live in daily fear that we will be next.

I hope that since you wrote this, things have taken a turn for the better?

Astrid said...

Happy SITS day!

Man...I feel your pain. It can be so hard when you don't know what's going to happen. I hope that it has all worked out for you... sometimes it's just nice to be able to vent.

HeatherY said...

It's so difficult to let things go and let the Lord do his work. Sometimes I wish he would just let us have a peak at when things are going to get better. The unknown is so tough! (((HUGS)))

Heather said...

As this post is a few months old now, I'm really hoping that you found that light on the path, if not being already out of the tunnel!!

Brenda Jean said...

I've so been there with days like this when my boys were little. I took things one day at a time and tried not to dwell on the big picture- it helped and we got past it:)

mommytoalot said...

Looks like God has answered your prayers.
xo
God bless

Cammie said...

Yes, we all have those days. Sometimes tt is so hard to remember that He is in charge and has a plan isnt it?

Susan said...

I have to say, this is something I've been struggling with too. It is good to know that God is in control, but that human aspect of life is that I want it done my way in my time. I think God uses these difficult times to get through to us! Hope things get better for you (and many others).

Karen said...

Wow, it really is hard when we realize we can't control aspects of our own lives. My first inkling of this was back when I started facing up to my infertility. I hope your DH found a great job! (((Hugs)))

Preston said...

I am not a religious man but I do respect people with faith. If I was religious, I would say that God expects you to do most of the work. He's just there to help you along the way and point you in the right direction. Use your faith to keep your sanity but use your brain to move your life forward. I know this is an older post so I am assuming all worked out well. :)

Doré said...

I know exactly how you feel. it's a terrible feeling and today's economy isn't helping AT ALL!!

Congrats on being the featured Blogger for SITS!

Denise said...

Bless you and your faith even when you don't know how to get through the short term. I've been there, in other situations, and its not easy to hold onto trusting God. The irony of this post is that the day you are the Featured Blog on SITS is the day you announce Big A's new job. Isn't God's timing amazing?

Chandra said...

Just seeing this post on SITS and I'm hoping things are looking up for you now. We are in this same situation right now and I'm actually thankful for it (weird I know) but it's brought me closer to God and my husband.

jubilee said...

I've been where you are. Often. And through the stress it is sometimes difficult to remember that God is in control, and that's when we need to remember it the most, yes?!

He's brought me and The Calm One through each time - and there have been many. Sometimes b/c of poor decisions we've made and more often from circumstances we've just had no control over. He'll do it for you too.

And when you look back, you may be surprised by the form that the manna has come to you. Just remember to take a lesson from Moses about beating rocks with a staff! BG

Brittany said...

I can sympathize with this. You just have to have faith and know that He is there even if it doesn't feel like it.

Crazy Momma said...

It is so hard for me to let go and let God sometimes...especially those times when I feel SO out of control. Me=big control freak.

I hope everything has worked out well for you guys!

Kat said...

Oh, it is soooo hard to hand things over to God. And to his timing. Because I am just so impatient. But it looks like from your post today that some of these prayers have been answered :-)

Jenners said...

Happy SITS day! I'm hoping it all worked out and stabliized...I'm reading out of context!

G. said...

I've been through similar situations. My husband and I are in the Ministry. We can't always explain why we go through hard times but, one thing that my life is proof of is that, He(God) always comes through. There have been times when we didn't know how we were going to pay a bill on time and next thing you know, an unexpected check comes in the mail.
Remember He loves you and He is good. Just a little encouragement for ya. :)

Rhonda said...

That sucks. I hope things are getting better for your family!

Jaden Paige said...

I've been where you are... And it's not fun. Keep your head up and know that things will all work out in the end. Everything happens for a reason (so cliche, but so true...), and though you might not be able to see the sense in it now, you'll pull through and be all the stronger for it.

Lisa said...

Psalms 37:25, "I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread."

God is going to take care of you -- just trust that!

Lisa

Erin said...

I can totally relate to this. I think we all can. And I too ended up with an even stronger prayer life and faith. That was what got me through in the end... Amazing how it all works isn't it?

jsprik said...

God sure is good isn't He?? be blessed!!

Michelle said...

The worst part about the whole thing is that you don't have control. If only you had control over it, life would be sooooo much easier because you could make a plan. BUT so glad it worked out for you in the end. Yay to dream jobs!

Katie said...

A test of faith is so important! God knows where we're at and what we can handle, but it's a chance for us to see how much we've grown and how much we can accomplish (in Him). The last 2 years of our lives have been a test of faith...keep on trustin'.

Felicia said...

Man, I know how you feel. Last year my husband and I made some decisions that cost us our home (but we were never homeless). We have been starting over since. I hope it doesn't get that bad for you. But I can tell you as long as you trust God he will provide. I am proof. I landed a job at USC (I am in D.C.). The perfect job. The job that I've always prayed for. Trust and know that there is light.

Leah said...

I think we make plans so the Lord can change them. And see how we will do. At least that is how feel (after 8 moves, 5 job changes, 3 kids, 3 states ect.) Remember to find humor in the little things so you can look bac at this an laugh and talk about what you have learned. You'll come out better at the other end if you stay close to Him.

Dream Girl said...

"Let go and let God deal with it."

Michele said...

Thanks for sharing your worries. It reminds us we are not alone! Lots of good thoughts your way. I will read more to find out what happened next...

kjamama said...

I read your edit and am SO happy for you that everything worked out. God bless you!

Blue Castle said...

It's so good to know God is there to rely on. He may not be as fast as we want Him to be, but He never fails.

Vickie said...

I read your edit comment. Glad thing are better.

Happy SITs Day.

Tabitha Blue said...

You're right, God always does have it in control... sometimes that's just the hardest thing to trust, even when we know it! So glad it turned out so well!! Enjoy the move :)

april kennedy said...

Faith in God can make any tough situation a little easier. I am glad you have that faith....cling to it...and to your husband and baby!

angi_b72 said...

I feel ya girl! I am wondering when all this madness will end as well!! Money is truly the root of all that is evil!!

Oh2122 said...

My little sis, godmother to my son, moved from MA to NM this summer.

I'm still not at all pleased with the US Air Force locating my BIL's base so far away. Sure he chose the base, but they didn't have to put one there!

Happy SITS Day!

andrea said...

It all sorts out when and how it's supposed to, right?! Blessings for you:)

Momma Drama said...

When you put your trust in the Lord He will always take care of you.

Kristy said...

i feel your pain. we had to have a garage sale 2 weeks ago just so we could go to the grocery store and buy food for the kids. God always finds a way to make things work though.

kimberly said...

i so know where you are (have been? i havent read the update yet)

currently, my husband is working 350 miles away just so we can pay some bills until he finds a job here at home....unless we move....but we dont really want to. so....like you said. all in God's hands.

Andie said...

Keep your head up. Remember that whenever God closes a door he opens a window. Looks as if prayers were answered by the looks of your edit.

mrsbear said...

I think we all have those days in one degree or another. Congrats on the dream job, glad it all worked out.

Janna said...

I'm glad everything worked out okay.

BoufMom9 said...

Well done putting your faith and trust in Him. See how it all worked out for the best? HE knows what He's doing :)

Irene said...

Happy things are better for you!

Louisa said...

Praise God that he is always in control! Visiting from SITS.

Frankie and Bella said...

I'm not sure if this has been commented yet, but a really great quote I once heard is "If god brought you to it, he will bring you through it". Have faith that you are never given more than you can handle.

Nessa said...

We've been there more times than I care to think about. I have a very bad habit of worrying rather than praying about things. Or I will pray about them, but just not let it go and will keep stressing about it. I'm trying to learn to let go and let God.

Hope things get better soon! Sounds like they are better with this East coast move. Congrats!

Rhea said...

My life is chaos at the moment also. I hear ya. Job searching, children sick, husband falling apart...

Elle MD said...

I look forward to reading your 'update' post. In '01/'02, I was unemployed for nearly 9 months. I'm a single parent who had just bought my first house. I honestly don't know how we did it, but we made it through. We didn't lose electricity or water or my car. And we ate everyday. God is good and He always finds a way.

Steph said...

God has spent the last 2 years teaching me to let go and just trust Him. It's so hard! I'm so happy to hear about recent job news though! Congrats!

Janah @ So Not Mom-a-licious said...

I feel ya SITSa! This time of year is supposed to be filled with tradition, happiness and cheer! I guess God doesn't live his life by a calendar, right? Good Luck and God Bless! Merry SITSmas!

The Boss Lady said...

I've had so many days like that it's unbelievable...it will get better. It has to! My mom passed away suddenly in March and I've been reeling ever since...but I'm alive and kicking, so it can't be that bad, right?

Sheena @ Mommy Daddy Blog said...

Read your update and commented, I'm happy for you! Things get better, we're kinda on the same boat!

hyperactive lu said...

Wow! You've got a lot of unknowns right now. We've been in the same spot. Our oldest was about to turn 1 and Hubbie lost his job. I did have a job- thankfully- that helped us stay afloat, but I don't think I made more than 20,000 so we couldn't survive on it.

I pray that God gives you peace in this time of uncertainty and that y'all will find the right jobs, in the right spot and I hope you have a very Merry Christmas.

mrsmouthy said...

Yup, we all go through it--and when things are good we feel they'll be good forever and when things are rough, sometimes it feels they'll be rough forever. But they never are.

Rachael said...

My life has been insane and out of control this year. If I hadn't had my faith through this time, and been able to pray and try to find trust in God, I don't know what Iw ould have done!

Anna Lefler said...

I think everyone has these times and they do, indeed, pass.

I hope this one passes quickly and smoothly for you! I'm sure it will...

Hang in there!

:^) Anna

Judy Haley said...

hang in there

happy followers